12/04. Today’s always hard. My uncle got rushed back into surgery today too. Trying to stay positive tho. My sister got into her first choice for college and the bracelet I bought went over very well. Shoulder is feeling pretty good. Bout to take advantage of this delayed opening.
Training was tough today. It was hard to keep my shoulders tucked while benching..I believe it’s tendinitis. Which also explains my elbow pain. I guess I gotta get used to feeling banged up every day. Overall pretty good day though, can’t complain
Awesome day for a change. My shoulder is feeling better thankfully so I went and did legs today. Not only did I go train, I went in and hit a new squat PR for reps. Then I did some squat hypertrophy work too which was brutal. My shoulder felt a little tight holding the bar but it definitely is getting better. Gotta keep the faith, prayer works wonders
As I lay in bed tonight staring at the ceiling I’m beginning to realize I may be depressed. Nothing serious, just currently. Nothing is going right for me anymore. Looking back even my last couple posts have been negative. I’m so upset and there’s nothing anybody can do. My family life has been so bad recently and I can’t talk to anyone about it because nobody understands. My shoulder hurts psychologically more than mentally because I’m wondering if it’ll keep happening. I’m just confused. I don’t know where I’m going in life. I need guidance. And hope. Everything has been so bad. I’m beginning to hate myself. I guess this is why I’ve been spending so much time alone. I don’t know what to do anymore. Tired of being the “positive guy” to all my Friends that isn’t aloud to ever be upset. Sometimes things just suck and there’s nothing we can do about it. I just suck.
Pretty good day. Not been tracking my macros too strictly but I’ve been hitting them. My shoulder is still bothering me. I’m depressed. Wish my family would stop fighting. I just want to lift, because I’m frustrating, but I can’t because of my shoulder, which makes me more frustrated. I can never win…whatever…tomorrows another day